Fettisdagen, Ash Wednesday, Lunar New Year, and Tallinn

I’m back with another update from the past few weeks. It’s hard to believe that I’ve now been living in Stockholm for over a month. The day’s are getting brighter and daylight extends a few minutes each day. I am (slowly) picking up more Swedish and am learning more and more about the quirks of Swedish culture every day. Right now, life is good.

Last week in Stockholm, I got to enjoyed another Swedish tradition, ring in the beginning of the Lenten Season, and celebrate Lunar New Year. Fettisdagen, also know as Fat Tuesday or Mardi Gras, marks the day before the Lenten fast is set to begin. Of course, this day corresponds with Christian tradition, although Sweden is a relatively secular society. However, Fettisdagen hardly goes without celebration, as tradition dictates that it be commemorated with the eating of the semla, sweet wheat bun flavored with cardamom topped with almond paste and whipped cream. I was lucky enough that the Swedish Program treated us to Fettisdagen fika, with semla as the star.  While semlor were once sold only on Fat Tuesday, the season has been growing longer. as of late, to mixed reactions. According to some of the Swedes I have spoken to on the subject (mind you, I had already eaten three before Fettisdagen), the “controversy” of the expanding semla season seems similar to how people feel about Christmas music being played earlier and earlier on the radio every year. I may be anti-early Christmas music, but if it was up to me, I’d eat a semla every day.

The following day, Ash Wednesday, kicks off the Lenten fast. Unlike the semla, Ash Wednesday traditions hit close to home. Despite being thousands of miles from Syracuse, I was able to attend services (in Swedish) and join my family, friends, and however many others around the world in welcoming the start of Lent. For me, receiving ashes reminds me of home and provides a sense of familiarity that can be incredibly comforting. In contrast, celebrating Lunar New Year a few days later reminded me not of home, but of Hamilton (s/o to Hamilton’s Asian Student Association), as my first experience celebrating the holiday was at school. In that way, Lunar New Year, like Ash Wednesday, makes me feel like home and the Hill don’t always have to feel so far away.

Finally, I had the chance to take a weekend trip to Tallinn, Estonia. Armed with a bag stuffed with snacks, I got on a boat that was much larger than I imagined (I’ve never been on a cruise) and enjoyed a fun time with my friends. My contact family had mentioned that Tallinn can seem a bit like Stockholm, but from fifty years ago, and I can’t say I disagree after my short time in the city. We spent most of our time in Tallinn’s Old Town, which included some sightseeing, lots of Google maps, and a pretty amazing visit to a modern Estonian restaurant.

The week that followed was much more routine. Classes are progressing, and I find myself appreciating my studies in ways I didn’t expect. For example, I’ve never taken a writing course at Hamilton, so I decided to enroll in Writing Sweden, a creative writing course focusing on writing dedicated to place. Despite the initial challenge, I find that the change of pace from my usual Public Policy coursework has been a welcome shift. Not only have my assignments given me an opportunity to reflect on my time here in Stockholm, but also how I interact with the places that are important to me.

Time is continuing to fly by, as I look forward to another exciting week!

 

Trying to Find Balance in London

I have still been adventuring in London, but life is becoming a bit more stressful especially with school.  I have two essays due in the upcoming two weeks that I really need to work on.  I am getting a bit tired of cooking for myself every day.  I am also stressed that I won’t stick to my budget, especially since I want to go to Scotland next month.

Contrary to all of the events I will share with you, I have been spending a lot of time alone in my room, watching Netflix, and trying to do homework.  Sometimes the only human interaction I get is when I Facetime my mother or sister.  I am trying to break out of my rut, but it can be hard to do.

London is still wonderful and I’m happy to be here, I just hope I can do well in my classes and I can continue to thrive here. Wish me luck!  Below I have shared some of my experiences with you.  Enjoy!

Kyoto Garden

A waterfall spills over rocks and lands rippling into a pond

Where koi fish swim lazily in circles

Trees adorned with tiny pink blossoms

Enclose the garden

Inhale the green

It goes through my nose

And cascades down my stomach

Like warm soup

The green goes up to my brain

Filling my mind

With thoughts

Of peace

 

Oxford and Christ Church

The architecture

Is breathtaking

I stand

Marveling

The luscious green gardens

Complement the magnificent buildings

I wish I could lend everyone in the world

My eyes

So that they could see

What I see

Lend them my heart

So they could feel

My awe and reverence

My spirits rise

Like a balloon lost to the horizon

The Farm

The smell of rotting hay, manure, animal stagnancy

Fills my nose

A large pig lays on its side

Napping

Covering its face with its ears

It oily nose twitching in its sleep

 

A horse named Champion

Looks at me with eyes that

Seem to say, Get me out of here!

I cannot

I do take a picture

He sees my camera

Lifts his head

And opens his eye really big

Only one eye

Making a silly face for me,

the sweetheart

 

A cow

Makes loud and hearty moo sounds

Her stomach contracts with all the effort

She puts into those moos

Her eyelashes long and delicate

 

Goats nibble at pine trees

Which will lower their worm count

Sheep lounge in the dirt

Still looking dignified as they rest

Museum of Natural History

Phoenix Bird

There is a bird

That can’t survive without volcanoes

Storing eggs in warm ground

For safe keeping

Destructive volcanoes

Can also give life

 

Whale World

One of the largest

Brains in the world

Dive and echolocate

To survive

Sing to communicate

Kind of like I do

A whale fetus the size of a golf ball

Grows so large

A miracle

The skeleton of a whale flipper

Waves hello

Whale eyes in jars

Stare hello

 

Windsor Castle

Beautiful and picturesque

The queen’s doll house

A mini-castle

Equipped with a tiny dining room, garden, maid’s quarters, suitcase/luggage room, kitchen, grand staircase, and a long dining table for guests

A dollhouse fit for Thumbelina and Tinkerbell

To relax in on weekends

Chinese New Year Parade

The colors

Pour into my eyes all at once

Yellows and reds and golds

Dragons

Held up by grown-ups and children alike

Dance in the street

Zig zagging to and fro

 

The dragons

Hop from stand to stand

Leaping like gazelles

Suspended in the air

Until they land safely again

The audience claps in joy

Phones held high to capture

the festivities of the New Year

One Cremation in Bali: A Christian’s Oberservation

A family

Not immediate nor distant


A village


A commemoration

Couple offerings

Couple couples

Couple kids

Couples animals

The strongest men

And music

All for a microcosm

 

A cremation

A celebration of one body

One soul

White covering

Many stakes

A prayer


A pause

A light

A fire


A tank under the body

Some silence, some conversation continued


A mourning family member(s)

A need to preserve culture

Don’t cry


Don’t cry

The soul separates and should not return

 

Ashes

 

 

On Monday, February 5, 2018, I observed a cremation ceremony for a local man who had passed away from a motor accident. To respect the ceremony, I wore a seron, then met the long line of people who reside in the village and joined the ceremony. In the middle of the line was the body of the dead man, wrapped in all white, on a pillar that was higher than the people walking. The pillar was on wheels and driven/carried by the strongest men in the village. There was a picture of him on the back of what the men were wheeling. His wife was close by the body, along with his immediate family. There were men following right behind the body playing beautiful music. They then spread out around the field we walked to, and in the middle was the area set up for the body to be burned. There was a large gas tank-like item, and small pillar for the body to lay. The men pushed and wheeled the larger that the body was on twice around where the body would be burned, then removed a rooster (offering) from near the body. Money and offerings were thrown and around the area where the body was. The body was then carried by the men to where it would be burned, and released the rooster. Before the body was burned, people sat around the body to pray. Not everyone went close to the body to pray. After the prayer, the fire was ignited and the body began to burn. Only one man continued to poke at the body, using a long stick to ensure it properly burned. As the body burned, most people did not cry, but the man’s wife was in tears.

During the ceremony I was amazed at how many people came and celebrated the life of one person. There is not a large percentage of people in America, to my knowledge, that want their body cremated. I believe that this difference from America comes from the importance of keeping the soul separate from the body. The soul is forever, and the body is temporary. In America, it is really just close relatives and friends that would attend one person’s funeral. In Bali, the entire village celebrates that life. I hope my life is celebrated, but I do not believe I would like to be cremated.

A Holm Fit for a King

This time around my excursion into Stockholm was for a class. Last week was exciting for a few reasons: first full week of classes, some Swedish snow, and the beautiful act of laundry to name a few. But, I think the best thing to show off for anybody reading is my first field study in Stockholm. This past Wednesday, I went to the Royal Palace with my Swedish Language and Culture class. This is the palace that housed the Swedish monarch for more than a millennia, although there have been renovations. It was a fascinating place and the guide made it even better, spouting fact after fact or detail after detail about every aspect of the palace, its design, and its furnishings. Additionally, getting some insider stories about the Swedish monarch made the Swedish crown a possible subject to a TV series.

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This is where we entered the castle. It was a brisk walk up some truly gorgeous steps. The exact same steps that dignitaries from all over the European world would have had to walk to meet the King or Queen. The steps were these massive slabs of stone surrounded by marble covered walls with the most fine details etched into the accents of the interior architecture. It was really something special. In the U.S. we don’t have a royal family, or the artifacts left behind from a monarch like this. Seeing the true amount of opulence that was used to inspire the sort of power necessary to hold and maintain power over a country of people was staggering. Our guide spoke about power and how it has been used as a tool to cement the authority of the crown, not only domestically but to surrounding countries as a way to stave off invasion. If someone came to meet with you and felt like they were equal, what would keep them from thinking they could take it all away. It was unbelievable how much thought was put into making the royals at a higher level than everyone else. There were even dinners where people couldn’t sit or eat, but were invited to simply stand and watch the royal family eat and have conversation. This was an honor people wanted, even when that dinner could last four hours and have 32 courses.

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Today, the royal family no longer acts as the face of the country. Similarly to Britain, the Royal Family has no political power and doesn’t vote in any political affair. Even more shockingly, they aren’t allowed to have an opinion that differs from the political outlook of the government. The Swedish people’s opinions about the crown are mixed to say the least. The days are long gone when Sweden cared about opulence and displays of power. People have even greater feelings that tax dollars (or Krona) every year go to the family and the palace to maintain the artifacts of the past. Some traditions even still remain today. The King sits at the banquet table (which they hold multiple times a year) with an extra table cloth under their plate. This comes from the old tradition that the king would sit at an elevated level to his guest. Today it is by about a millimeter thanks to that tablecloth. I completely understand that the Royal Family is an artifact of the past similar to all the pieces of royalty in the palace, but I would say the Palace is basically a museum. They’re not funding a family that spends tax dollars on a Bentley or a Ferrari. They’re the spiritual face of the nation. Also, they almost certainly bring a lot of tourist dollars into the country. The guide also mentioned that many of the traditions of yesteryear are slowly being phased out. Sweden is ever changing and so is their royalty.

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After literally anything in Sweden, there is only one thing left to do: Fika! We all took a small walk over to this wonderful little cafe overlooking an old square. This wasn’t the usual location of the place, but thanks to a water leak we were given a once in a lifetime chance. The entire little restaurant had been moved two floors up in this gorgeous little building. I was too excited about the prospect of DIS treating us all to coffee and something to eat that I didn’t get any pictures, but the spiral staircase with an old fashioned elevator in the middle is ingrained in my mind. Talk about European goals. After taking our seats we were allowed to peruse a few of the options for sustenance. My eyes immediately trained upon a Semla. This distinctly Swedish treat that I had seen everywhere but never had a chance to try. It was delicious. The bread was much less sweet than I expected, but the whipped cream added just the right amount of moisture and hint of sweetness to make me a very happy camper. Additionally, the middle was filled with this sweet almond butter that was the perfect surprise.

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It was a truly amazing first week. I would have never gotten to see what this field study showed me. The guided tour was fascinating, funny, informational, and actually pretty awe-inspiring. I got to have awesome political discussions with peers and new friends. I was able to eat a dessert that I had been dying try to in a place that was to die for. (See what I did there?) I am so excited to see what else Stockholm has to show me. Do you know what’s the best thing about these Field Studies? I have them basically every week I’m here and have class. Thanks for reading. Onto the next one!

Sunday Funday

For me, Sunday has always been a special day.  It can be a day to relax, play a little catch-up, or spend time with family and friends. This Sunday, I found myself enjoying a combination of all my favorite Sunday traits, a slow morning, hearty breakfast, spending time outside, and enjoying the company of some awesome friends.

The morning began as any respectable Sunday should. I woke up without an alarm and stayed in bed long enough to truly appreciate the comforting warmth unique to one’s own bed. My next move brought me to Café Saturnus for brunch with some of my friends. The highlight was my first kanelbulle, or cinnamon bun, in Stockholm. Baked goods can be an important component of the Swedish diet, as they are often an essential part of Swedish Fika (more on Fika later), the traditional Swedish coffee break. I’ve been longingly staring at the kanelbulle and their golden twists for weeks, and it was definitely worth the wait. 

Later, we went to Drottningholm Palace to take advantage of the (early) afternoon sun.  The name Drottningholm translates literally to “Queens’s Island,” and the palace dates back to the 16th century. Drottningholm Palace has been home to The Royal Family since 1981, and their presence on the property is indicated by the raised Swedish flag.  Visitors can tour the interior of the palace; however, on this particular Sunday, we decided to focus on the outdoor areas. The palace grounds includes beautiful gardens and walking trails. We spent a few hours exploring (and photographing) the gardens, as well as navigating some of the eighteen kilometers (about 11 miles) of walking trails.

Despite the cold, the sun was out in full force and it was great to spend a few golden hours enjoying the fresh air. I am definitely looking forward to visiting another time. Hopefully, it will be a bit warmer with a little less snow. If not, I can always tour the inside of the palace and maybe catch a glimpse of The Royal Family. I am glad to report that I am tackling at least one item on my list and am taking time to get out and explore.

Some Place Like Holm

First week down and a lot has happened! This week was based around orientation with the program and orienting myself with this beautiful new city. The first few days had a large amount of culture shock (although I use the term lightly) and awe for all the stark changes I saw, but that’s lessened. That isn’t to say the city has become common place but the little pieces of familiarity have come out and started to bloom. The public transport, the people, and the consumerism are really keeping me grounded. (Don’t worry, it will make sense.)

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Public transport in Stockholm is truly a blessing. I’ve only ever really used one public transportation system, being the one run under New York City. The system in Stockholm  is called SL and I can only think of ways it’s better than home. I’ve mainly been using the metro/subway (or the Tunnelbanan), but the SL system covers any sort of transit including buses, commuter trains, and even ferry’s. With the program, we get this transit card that covers unlimited travel on any of the services in the system. At first this network of transport is vast, non-nonsensical, and scary. But that all changed after a few trips and the pressure of commuting. Missing a stop changes a metro into a simple, although very scary, game of finding your way back. Once you play that game and win, you will know your way around. Let’s just say, I played that game early in my week. It was a scary moment that lasted about 10 minutes. Names you don’t know and colors that determine the line can be a lot to stare at, too much stimulus only adding to your confusion and anxiety. However, taking a train one stop backwards is not the end of the world and can be worked out pretty easy. That’s something I know and that’s something that feels just like home. Never fear, the metro is here. And it is easy.

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The people at first seem perfect, too perfect even, but after a little time they open up and show their human side. When you get here, there’s an instant change in people surrounding you. Everyone is independent, capable, and speak English basically perfectly. (Which can feel awful when you don’t speak a lick of Swedish.) Also, they are extremely fashionable. Wait, I might not be making my point. If it isn’t coming across, they’re a little (extremely) intimidating. You feel out of place very distinctly and mostly accurately. You don’t belong here; that’s okay and important to realize, but palpable and quite a shock. It takes a while for you to come to terms with your difference. After you do, the people stop being so scary and start to become as interesting as they truly are. You’ll never guess, Swedish people are… at the end of the day… if you’ll believe it… people. Additionally, they are kind people. This guy above was yelling in Swedish in a little market in a consumer district of Stockholm by the Hotorget station of the Tunnelbanan. He was selling fruit. I ran over to take a picture of the stand and its background. I mean, look at those lights. As soon as he sees me, he stops yelling, faces me, and puts up a “knarley” sign. It was fantastic. After getting the picture, I run to catch up with friends, yelling “tack so mycket” with a big smile on my face. He is one of millions of people that live in Stockholm. One in millions of pictures, thanks, and knarley signs yet to be had.

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New York City is a big city and an even bigger city for shopping, but Stockholm has not left me wanting in the slightest. There is a massive presence of shops, both high end and low, all over the city. There is something extremely comforting about window shopping boutiques and little boogie restaurants based on new culinary trends as I walk down the street. I hate to say it, but capitalism is comforting. It is a pivotal part of the westernized (and really any) culture in the world. Coming to Europe, I wasn’t thinking about shopping and I’m still not. However, having this presence makes it feel like home. I first realized it because of commercials. On the first train I got on, there was a commercial for Molly’s Game and some Swedish animated movie. There are movies people are gonna go see, there are kids movies that parents get dragged to and have to sit through, there are people that have to put those signs up. This kind of culture made things feel less alien and unknown. It works the same here as it does at home, so will everything else. I was even able to find a little Time Square pictured above. It doesn’t get captured it in the picture; there were screens all over and shops walling the intersection. I was overcome in such a familiar way. I don’t mean to get cheesy, but holm didn’t feel so far away.

Time Flies

It has been almost a month since I hopped on a plane in Syracuse to fly to Stockholm, my new home for the next four months. To be honest, I wish I had chosen to begin writing this blog sooner, as there is so much to share. However, there is no time like the present, so I will share some highlights from the past few weeks.

My time in Stockholm began with a week-long orientation, with the Swedish Program staff helping to provide my fellow students and I with necessary guidance and support. The week concluded with a trip to the the island of Sandhamn, a popular summer travel destination and one of the many islands that make up the archipelago of Stockholm. I dined on Swedish meatballs, began to learn some Swedish, took a beautiful walking tour of the island, and even took the traditional plunge into the Baltic Sea.

Classes started about a three weeks ago. Although the Stockholm School of Economics is a business school, the Swedish Program offers a variety of courses in an array of different subjects. I am glad to have the chance to continue studying public policy through a new lens, learn more about the Swedish language, and take a creative writing course for the first time.

The Swedish Program visited the Vasa Museum and we had the chance to see the famous ship up close. The Vasa is the only 17th century warship that has been salvaged and restored to a nearly fully intact state. As expected, the ship is impressive. However, despite its grandeur, I learned that the story of the Vasa is actually a tale of major mishaps. On her maiden voyage in 1628, the Vasa sunk just minutes after leaving port. Recovery and restoration efforts began in the 1960s.

The Swedish Program pairs interested students with Contact Families that live in the Stockholm area. I am lucky enough to have been welcomed into my Contact Family’s home to share a few meals and to begin to get to know them. I have really enjoyed spending time with them and am thankful to have my own slice of family life, even though I am so far from my own. Last week, we watched the highly anticipated Eurovision song contest, as Sweden is gearing up to choose their representative at the final competition with the rest of Europe. I have to admit, I’m hooked and am looking forward to tuning in tomorrow. If I can’t watch The Bachelor, at least I’ll have this.

Given that I’ve had some time to explore Stockholm and settle into my classes, I am excited for what’s to come. As part of our orientation, each of us were asked to write down some goals for the semester. We were encouraged to write them down and share them, so as to make them feel more concrete and more obtainable. I’ve decided to share some of those goals here, as well as a few more. My hope is that this list will both grow and shrink as I continue to set new goals and accomplish others. For now, here it is (in no particular order).

  1. Learn enough Swedish to hold a conversation with my Contact Family.
  2. Take pictures. I’ve never been one who’s been good at documenting special moments, but this seems like the perfect place to start.
  3. Take time as much as possible to be outside and enjoy the precious sunshine.
  4. Learn to cook a traditional Swedish meal from appetizers to dessert.
  5. Be active.
  6. Go foraging for mushrooms.
  7. Travel somewhere (local during daylight hours) alone. No need to worry, Mom.
  8. Take time for self-reflection.

My hope is that I will be posting at least once a week and sharing photos as much as possible. Until then, hej då!

Hopes and Fears: A Black Student in Indonesia

Hello! My name is Ricardo Millien and I’m currently a Junior at Hamilton College studying in Indonesia for the semester! I’m Haitian, but an American citizen, and throughout this entire experience abroad I will attempt to expand my mind in a new place, with new people, and learning a new language— all while observing how my blackness is reflected, received, and how I internalize it in comparison to the United States. I would like to begin this blog, “Creativity and Blackness in Indonesia,” with a rant:

I have a lot of writing and reading to do. I’m not thrilled to do it, but I’m here now so they will get done. I did the first preorientation assignment last night. I still need to do the book report by Friday. I feel antisocial. I don’t feel like really talking about trivial things. I will do well. I will learn Bahasa Indonesia. I will do what I have to do. These are just some thoughts, but here is how I felt on the way here to Bali, Indonesia, and how I have felt these past three days:

Although not great, fear is still present.
The fear of being different to the point that I’m deemed a peasant.
Fear of poison protruding from the ground
A snake, or shakes causing me to drown
In fear.
Fear of losing what I value.
Or my passport or what have you
Have you ever walked through a vicinity
Feeling victimized as very problematic people
Shoot bullets through their eyes?
Shit I hope I don’t contract anything from anything that bites me, including flies.
Multiple hours I fly not only to get to Bali, but to leave it.
Fear that a plane may crash
Or that I may be attacked by demons.
That American fear.
No showers just a bucket.
Fear that I’ll lose my heritage even more after already immigrating to the U.S. from Haiti
Fear that someone may hate me
How white people do.
Fear that this experience won’t humble me,
Or if it does that it will make me a coon.
Was not born with a silver spoon
But still fear that there may be days where the luxuries in the US won’t be present, shoot,
That’s also a possibility.
But I hope that God maximizes the probability that I will be blessed throughout this opportunity
And with people I’ve never met I may build community.
And may I work to build 1/100th Bahasa Indonesia fluency.

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